When I started seriously studying energy healing arts in the Barbara Brennan School of Healing in 2021, I was terrified.
Although I was following my heart to do something I loved, a primal fear was emerging: a fear of unbelonging; of being kicked out of society and left to fend for myself.
This fear arose because I was living in two worlds. One of which was as an Ecological Engineer for an environmental nonprofit, developing nature-based solutions for global problems. Practical, scientific, mathematical. A socially acceptable way of life.
The other world? My spiritual, inner life. My fascination with energetic medicine, channeling extradimensional beings, connecting with unlimited Love. My femininity, magic, and Light.
In Reality, both of these sides could coexist perfectly, dancing in balanced unison. That is the function of Duality: balancing opposites to create disparate experiences, while maintaining Wholeness.
However, we all know these opposing forces have been raging in a battle for quite some time. Science rules over Spirituality (though religion still reigns supreme); Masculine Conquering wins over Feminine Nurturing. Clear winners and losers, clear inequalities exist.
So, when I took a stand for my heart and Soul by following this holistic healing path, I was taking a risk. I risked disapproval by my father, by masculine figures everywhere. Fear projected onto my finances and caused deep insecurity. I felt I might go bankrupt, lose my job, and end up dead in the street – all because I followed my heart. Hello, Trust Issues.
Many people are struggling to reconcile seemingly contradictory parts within themselves, i.e. “Living in Two Worlds”. Though most people are not aware of it.
Let’s consider the following explanations for common chronic mental health problems…
Anxiety: a fear of revealing our true selves, in a world that is likely to judge us; paired with a desperate need to be authentic.
Depression: the overwhelming sadness that prevails when we feel powerless to make our unique mark in the world, due to fear of disapproval or hostility.
Suicidal Thoughts: the last ditch effort our mind makes when we feel purposeless, hopeless, and useless; the result of not being free to express our unique gifts, because our authentic self-expression threatens our survival in our social group.
Said simply, the state of our mental health is directly connected to the collective consciousness of the human race.
⭐ As a collective, we haven’t yet come to peace with opposites.
⭐ We haven’t learned to see value, light, and perfection in people who are different from us.
⭐ We vibrate fear and mistrust, while lacking the tools to properly process our repressed rage, grief, and existential terror.
Despite the incredible movements happening for human rights and self-expression, collective trauma still vibrates in our cells. That’s why living a conscious life can be terrifying: it takes a lot of courage to trust in Unconditional Love when wars still rage on.
These days, I see my “two sides” as part of a unifying Whole. I no longer reject my masculine side in favor of the feminine. I aim to embrace all parts of myself, so that I can live in inner harmony, which contributes (vibrationally) to a goal of Collective Peace.
Today, I invite you to…
Have Courage: examine where you’ve split, rejected and judged parts of yourself.
Be a Change-Maker: bring harmony and peace to the warring parts within.
When you heal yourself, you heal the entire web of humanity.
Yes, YOU have the power to change the world.
Ethereal Ecology 