Whoa – life. It’s intense sometimes. Or all the time. I mean, we are hurdling towards our deaths on a rock in space, consciousness temporarily embodied in a human form. We work hard everyday to survive even though one day we and our loved ones just won’t be here anymore.
At some point, we gotta stop and ask ourselves: “Why am I doing this? Wtf is all of this for?”
(I have zero answers to those questions.)
I still find them worth asking though. Is there a reason for me being here? Is there a reason why I should sit through this shitshow of Life on Earth, feeling overwhelmed by global crises, or taxes, or my cat scratching at the back door?
(I have no idea.)
I know absolutely nothing about the why’s and the how’s and the what the fuck’s of existence. I’m not even sure there’s a valid “reason” for any of it.
What I do know is that I always feel much better about life when I share my challenging feelings with others.
I feel better when I open up my heart and vulnerably disclose my self-deprecating, suicidal thoughts to friends who get me.
I feel better when I give myself permission to feel how I feel. Which often includes wanting to give up, throw all of my dreams away, hide in a hole and say “good luck” while holding up a middle finger to the rest of the world.
We all have those days. Or weeks. Or months. Years… okay, a whole god damn lifetime of pessimistic, depressing, hopelessness.
And you know what.
It’s fucking okay.
Over time, I’ve discovered a deep peace within the depths of my hopelessness and despair.
When I give myself the time and space to just be there, in that what the fucking fuck shit place; feeling my rage, disgust, terror, and grief;
I realize, damn, these feelings are valid. This world is crazy. Even the good stuff is overwhelming and weird.
I’m normal to feel how you feel.
And there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you.
What you need is to be seen and heard in your existential angst; to feel a sense of belonging, where your deepest feelings are expressed, and acknowledged.
If you’re seeking solace in your hopelessness; wondering what life is for; I am here supporting deep people like you, through healing programs that empower you to be yourself, rather than trying to change you.
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